Incoherent Late Night Acid/Drunken Induced Babble

Late last night I got quite inebriated. Sadly my laptop was opened and I began to write. It was all bullshit. Every word of it. Then again perhaps my sub conscience was trying to break out, another personality maybe. A person inside of me, a slice of my brain trying desperately to claw its way out. My last memory was opening the laptop; my next was waking up passed out on the floor.
That's enough of an intro. I hope you enjoy what I was mortified to find in the morning.


I have a child. Small. Very small. I look at it. I feel sorry. This little "ball of joy", Ha. ha, ha. How can this be my little ball of joy, this little freak. this thing... its not like me, not strong. this thing,, this being, this peice of life, this amorphous blog of life; it is not me.
it throws up on me. ughh... if that did not seem dipresed enough, i apoligize, it makes me feel such hatred for everything...perhaps i was not meant ot be a father. HA HA, of course i wasnt meant to be much. Not meant to be anything thaty could holld resonsiblity to anything that might hapen to live on this planet.
I owned a hampter once. After mal-nutieritoment and death i decided to own a snake instead. If the hampster could not live the snake – the stronger of the animal kingdom -- would out do it, and take its place. But instead my 13 yr old mind made it just as bad as the porr snke. when will parents intervien? When little sarah kills her goldfish time and time again (it wanted a walk) the rentals buy another. Sic Sic Sic.
I say not that i love animals, or that they diserve the same rights as humans; mearly that they too are animals. We are animals. We are animals. Let me say again... we are animals... We have been created by motyher earth to exist on her. But as a creation of mother earth we must understnad that we are a part of her. If we are a part of her, then we must except that we are then a part of nature. Do you agree? Fuck, No. Seriously. Do you agree? Are humans a part of nature? (think for a second; have we been created by nature?)
We are created ny nature. Nthing more nothing less. The dinosaurs may have killed them selves out with over eating. Does that mean we blame the dins for the lak of them. Nl. somethimes limet cjange can ge for the cod. I am not avitrctiang, just spreding afacts.